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AthenaArtemis on AO3 and LJ

Anonymous asked: You answered a message a while ago where you said that you found the idea of attraction fascinating and that fanart interests you because it's the "female gaze." I can't remember exactly how you worded it but I've been thinking about that so much lately. Could you maybe expand on that idea a little? I know it's easy to brush fanart off as meaningless and unoriginal but the fact that you put so much work into it tells me you feel differently. Thanks!


Uh I can try. This might be rambling nonsense yooooo.

I think the idea of attraction and beauty is fascinating (and kind of hugely disturbing), especially as it applies to girls and how girls are marketed to. Girls are taught, pretty much from the time we’re toddlers, that we are not good enough. Not attractive enough. Entire corporations have been built around the idea of making ladies feel bad about themselves.

If you want a man to buy a car, you reassure him that he’s awesome and deserves awesome stuff to go with his awesome manliness. Women are told just the opposite. Whatever we look like, whatever kinds of bodies we have—we must be changed. We’re raised to believe we began life flawed. And, more disturbingly, we’re raised to view ourselves as men view us.

Women are constantly looking at themselves and each other as we imagine men would look at us.

So fan art made by girls, in my opinion, is a very important thing. It’s not conventional, obviously. It’s not generally accepted as legitimate art, or even art at all, partly because it’s copyrighted characters, but partly too because it topples the notion that men get to have a say in what ladies are allowed to look at. It’s a way for girls to reclaim authority over their own gazes. Fan art is how girls say, “I want to look at this and enjoy it for myself, and I want to enjoy it with other girls.”

But it’s more than that. Because plenty of things are marketed to ladies. Playgirl and Viva. Glamour magazine. Talk shows. Obviously there are lots of things marketed to girls that cater to the female gaze.

But fan art, along with fanfiction, is one of the few things where the content, which was originally marketed to the mainstream (by men and for men—and specifically straight, white men), is being reclaimed by women. There’s a power shift that occurs. What once belonged to men has been reinvented by women, celebrated by women, and shared among women.

I think that’s awesome? I’m sure my thoughts have holes in them because I’m replying to this message while eating cereal, and I am not a women’s studies expert like not even close. And I know lots of people say, especially about my stuff, “Well, it’s just copying photos, even for fan art. It’s not original. You’re not really reinventing anything if you’re just drawing a portrait.”

And that really misses the point. Because I spent time with what I thought was attractive, whether aesthetically attractive or emotionally interesting or otherwise, and that was my time. No one else had input. It’s like buying a product without buying the bullshit invalidating message that went with it.

And that’s why fan art is valuable to me? I made myself the sovereign of my own gaze. 


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Robots, I don’t even know. I’ve been all over the place this week, and I’ve been so frustrated and pent-up. I can actually feel myself bristle when things happen around me, I’m avoiding certain sites, I feel anxious and angry when topics come up in conversation around me, I’m twitchy in public spaces. I’m carrying this constant low-level defensiveness that’s manifesting as frustration and aggression and it’s just seeping out of me sometimes. My partner had to ask me this weekend to please be a little less mean to them and I just sort of lost it because I don’t want to be mean it’s just sort of happening to me and i hate it. 

I wish I was made of spikes and quills. 

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DC: casts Jason Momoa as Aquaman (A Q U A M A N), and suddenly people want to see it.

Marvel: casts TWO DIFFERENT WHITE DUDES as versions of Ant-Man. Also Jan is presumably white, not that we could know, because she’s fridged before we even get to her.

There is definitely no lesson to be learned here.

No fucking joke, if Aquaman isn’t my fav character in the DC universe after we get a) SDCC panels featuring Momoa, and b) we get the movie then DC would have SERIOUSLY fucked something up. I’m already planning a genderbent Momoa!Aquaman costume so I can get a photo-op with him!

Ant Man….I am still 100% sure I won’t be seeing in theaters.

Ditto. Not the least bit interested in Ant Man, and my interest in Aquaman went from “the guy who talks to fish? Really?” to “Hey now, this might actually be worth keeping an eye on.” REALLY interested to see who ends up directing and with script credit, but my interest is about one million times greater than it was a week ago. 8)

  • what she says: im fine
  • what she means: sirius black died and there was never time to mourn him and i am continually haunted by the veil he fell through


The difference between learning a modern language and an ancient language is that in first year French you learn “Where is the bathroom?” and “How do I get to the train station?” and in first year Attic Greek or Latin you learn “I have judged you worthy of death” and “The tyrant had everyone in the city killed.”

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  • me: what are taxes and how do I pay them?
  • school system: worry not
  • school system: mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell



saying “you are a burden on society” is just such a weird framing of priorities

It’s like saying “wow, think how much better gas mileage your car would get if you weren’t sitting in it” or “think how dry that umbrella would be if you weren’t holding it in between you and the rainstorm”.

the things we create? they’re for us. they are meant to carry us. they are meant to protect us. we are meant to hold them up to keep us dry. 

Society is so much more burdened by the people who say that and prevent the creation of humane accommodation for people with disabilities than the actual disabilities.

Not just on a “those people are assholes” level, but on an actual fiscal level. We are wasting money and time and resources because if we provided better and proper services for people it is cheaper to keep people healthy (to whatever level is possible for a given individual) than it is to pay for emergency services once someone is having a crisis because they were unable to access proper care and resources.

Also when my friends with disabilities and chronic illnesses AREN’T fighting insurance to get coverage of the treatments they need, we’re all happier and they have the energy to do some cool shit. (Or they just feel better than they would otherwise, but that’s better for us all than the alternative.)

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